Holleran has lived the kind of fast-lane gay life, as he says, now wept over in doctors' offices. He knows that desires haven't changed, but the consequences of those desires have. From the porno movie houses to his own bedroom on St. Marks Place, Holleran tells of his last trick, good sex/bad sex, fear, despair--and hope. He says outright what others secretly think, bringing out into the open the nightmares and the enduring passions.